> > =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= > = F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. = > =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= > > mindfuck me, baby > ----------------- > > good lord i need a woman. i haven't really *cared* for someone in more than > a year. i feel like a rock with no emotions and it sucks to be hard. it's > hard to be hard. > > i have a few friends; mostly the same gender as me: male. mostly stupid guys. > a few smart ones, and one real smart one, but he's a christian and he annoys > me sometimes with his holiness. i like to talk to him, but not for long. > > this isn't angst so don't stop reading. > > i'm not angry or disturbed. i accept my situation because i created it. i > don't make an effort to meet people. my hair is ragged and i wear the same > jeans two days in a row. i like to sit in front of my computer with a joint > and stay there. i guess i'm not noticeably unattractive - i just don't care. > > at the same time i have this overnight event in like a month where i'm > supposed to bring a date. yeah, right. i'll probably sit in the back of the > chartered bus with a case of lone star and have a miserable, albeit twisted, > time. but maybe not. maybe i'll run into an attractive, impulsive, healthy, > atheist/agnostic, stoner, freedom-of-thought type libertarian woman on the > bus tomorrow. hopefully she won't be a computer chick and then maybe i > perform some massive escapism on my lust for technology. > > "run away!!!!!!!!!!!" > > i wanna cabin. in montana. with no electricity, but with running water. i > want to live comfortably, but un-connected. de-net myself for a few decades. > just raise homing pigeons and hunt and fish for my own food. if the girl i > meet tomorrow wants to come, she can. ill visit home every few months, to > check up on the folks, friends and fast food. refill prescriptions and what > not. lots of prescriptions. > > wouldn't it be nice to not check your email for seven days? just set up a > vacation so you can give autoresponses to everyone like: > > Hi! I'm taking an email vacation - if it's important, call me voice, if not, > you'll hear from me next week. thanks! > > ..*sigh* > > i should do that, and you should too. take a break. use your computer for > papers and homework, but detach yourself from any online communities you > affiliate with. don't answer email. don't read news (DON'T READ NEWS?!!?! > Noooooooooooooooooooo!!) for a week. go to class and come home and do your > homework or read or explore the area where you live. try it: just one week. > > i will, i swear to god. i will. just one week - then i'll be back. and then > i'll take another break every three months or so. maybe that's when i could > do my wash. > > anyways my point is this: i need some good conversation. i would rather have > someone to talk to than to have sex with at this point. if conversations > were fruits and veggies, i'd have scurvy by now. i'm a lonely sailor, sailing > the ship of my fate off the edge of the earth. i have no idea what i'll see > when i get there. either i discover a new world on this globe or sail off the > flat sea into space. > > "we breath deep in a steam dream > and plunge below the waterline > down, down, down, down, down, > between beams to the blue moon > among the seaweed and the slime > down, down, down, down, down, down." > > it's amazing how music can affect mood. > > changing sucks. > > **porno*funk** > > =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= > = Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, Submissions = > = Mail: jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) = > =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= > = To receive new issues through mail, mail jericho@dimensional.com with = > = "subscribe fuck". If you do not have FTP access and would like back = > = issues, send a list of any missing issues and they will be mailed. = > =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= > = AnonFTP FTP.DIMENSIONAL.COM/users/jericho/FUCK = > = FTP.SEKURITY.ORG/pub/zines/fucked.up.college.kids = > = FTP.GIGA.OR.AT/pub/hackers/zines/FUCK = > = FTP.ETEXT.ORG/pub/Zines/FUCK = > = WWW http://www.dimensional.com/~jericho = > = http://www.reps.net/~krypt/fuck.html = > =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= > = (c) Copyright. All files copyright by the original author. = > =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= >