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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Gossip Whore
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It's nothing new to me or in general, but seems to be prevalent
in my life again. 'Scene politics'. Let me define a few things to make
sure we are on the same wavelength. The scene constitutes any part of
the online word, who meet via computers, phones, or in person. These
people share the same interests typically, be it hacking, phreaking,
or other reasonably specific areas involving computers. Politics in this
instance is seemingly any communications between said people.
I won't go into specific cases for this file even though there
are enough to write several books with. Why not list specific instances
to better prove my point? Because they propagate themselves in doing
so. Seems that every day some new situation arises that causes some
kind of tension or other problems between people in the scene. One of
the most ironic facets of this problem is that everyone involved in
it recognizes the problem, and claims to hate it as much as I do. Yet
it continues on, hanging above us day in and day out.
For two years now, I have had dealings with someone that lives
in my area who is part of the scene. Every week of those years I have
had to watch my back, wondering what he is doing. Outwardly we are good
friends believe it or not. In social situations or in chat rooms, we
get along just fine, maintain that we are friends, and continue on. Yet
once a month I find yet another example of him plotting or scheming for
some kind of hostile activity for me. Many times there is no direct action,
but implied threat. I don't know why I carry on as if we are friends
when I have to watch my back like I do. I guess from here on out I should
act accordingly. This example is not here to point fingers, but to remind
everyone of how accustomed we have become to the workings of this monster.
How does this happen? Forget the 'why', as that can be easily
and quickly explained as "human nature" for my purposes. As for how,
that is quite simple too. No, fuck it. Change of venue. How is not
important either. The reasons do not become the actions, so we will
not dwell on them. The issue at hand that must be realized is just that,
that it is a problem we all seem to face, and that it must end no matter
the cost. This petty bickering and continued backstabbing serves no
purpose but to alienate each other further.
Every time I pause while writing, I keep thinking to myself
that everyone reading this will know of what I speak. That this is by
no means new to anyone over three years old, and that I shouldn't waste
my time with things known to all. So let me cut this short and just
serve this reminder to everyone out there. There are no secrets, especially
when it comes to your feelings about someone else. If you dislike someone,
it will be known to them whether it communicates itself via your own
actions, or the slip of another's tongue. The bigger the secret, or
the more potent the hatred, the longer it will take to escape and find
home in new minds. But do not deceive yourself, it will escape.
In recent days I have found myself caught up in the middle
of yet another ugly situation. I was brought into the mess by the clever
manipulation of one person to another. Through a clever lie, information
was wrongfully passed that prompted one to question me, thus bringing
me into the fray. Instead of yielding to the politic monsters that
consume us, I let my mind be known and put my involvement to rest
at once. My response to the misplaced question the person posed was
less than hospitable. I did not know the person beyond recognition of
name and place, but my dagger-like response lay all doubt aside to
whether I would be part of the ugliness at hand. True, my response
could have been much less bitter, but anything less and my point
would not have been as clear as it was.
This will be my response, my stance, on all scene politics in
the future. I will not be part of anything of the sort. Realization
that friends may be lost in the process is foremost on my mind, but
a necessary evil in the path I have chosen. If you know about what
I describe above, and are equally as sick as I, then cast away your
participation in the game. Face the consequences of your actions
as well as the penalty in doing so, but know that you are ridding
yourself of inordinant amounts of stress and removing yourself
from those tense situations.
The first response from people reading this will be that of
disbelief. Surely it can't be that easy to distance yourself from
these situations. Of course it is that easy. Why wouldn't it be?
You just have to accept that resolve and force your will upon
others. Let it be known that you will not stand for that kind of
silliness, and that you refuse to be even a neutral observer. Completely
remove yourself from the situation as fast as you can, and let things
work themselves out, without your involvement. It can be done,
and it is that simple. Seeing is believing as they say, so I encourage
you to try that. Don't let scene politics be a part of your life,
and make damn sure they don't control any aspect of it.
.dis.
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