F U C K E D  U P  C O L L E G E  K I D S
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	Poetry is a means to a certain kind of knowledge, and 
	there is a certain kind of knowledge 
	to which it is the only means.     

					 - Archibald MacLeish
 
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	Granite Roses]------------------------

	Its hard to hold a knife to your own back,
	so you give it to a friend.
	Where paranoia stops,
	naivety begins.

	Children born with a brand of propaganda burnt on their foreheads.
	Little girls playing in a street of crimson and syringes.
	Their braids and dresses flowing through the shadows of granite.
	Crystalline liquor bottles slicing there faces,
	but it never breaks the skin.
	Where paranoia stops,
	naivety begins.

	Media harlots sold out to the highest bidder.
	All bought out by good ole Sam.
	A marriage takes place in a cemetery tonight.
	Where love, truth, lies, and blood blend.
	Where paranoia stops,
	naivety begins.

        SYCO



	My world has died
	a new beginning from an end
	known eternally, but never by others
	a ray of hopeful light?
	no, just a stray beam of photons
	
	Why is life so chaotic?
	and death so elegant and graceful?
	it is not my place
	and yet,
	i travel on

	Through the mist
	the cobwebs and fire
	i is changed
	nothing i was
	now this i am

	by L0gic Rat



	Girls Don't Cry
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	I would say I'm sorry
	If I thought that it would change your mind
	But I know that this time
	I've said too much
	Been too kind

	I try to laugh about it  
	Cover it all up with lies
	I try and
	laugh about it
	Hiding the tears in my eyes
	Cause girls do cry,
	and I'm tired of crying.

	I would break down at your feet
	and ask forgiveness
	Plead with you 
	But I know that
	it's too late
	And now there's nothing I can do

	So I try to laugh about it
	Cover it all up with lies
	I try to
	laugh about it
	Hiding the tears in my eyes   
	Cause this girl no longer crys
	
	I would tell you
	that I loved you
	if I thought that you would stay
	But I know that it's no use
	that you've already
	Gone away

	Misjudged your limits
	Pushed you too far
	You took me for granted

	I thought that you needed me more

	Now I would do most anything
	to get you back by my side
	But I just
	Keep on laughing
	Hiding the tears in my eyes
	Cause girls always cry
	and this girl is done crying
	this girl does not cry

	-- Inspired by: the cure's - Boys Don't Cry

	09-18-96 
	Kamira   



	Confusion

	my eyes are open but I cannot see
	something in front of me 
	something inside of me   

	I looked around, searching for her
	calling in my heart 
	calling in my mind  

	no answer..

	the pain of waiting for what I may not want to hear

	nny
   


	Away

	One big push,
        	it's all I seem to get from you.
	I'm just as human as you,
	        I can only be pushed so far,
	                Before I walk away...
	That might be what you want,
	        or maybe ... not
	You can't seem to go yourself,
	        is that why you push me?

	Tear into my chest
	        pull it out, yeah you know what you're holding...
	Step carefully, feels like you're walking all over me... 
	You've said you can't return my love,
	        and you say you love me anyways.
	Why can't I go?
	I try not to think about it.
	Sometimes it's good to be taken for granted,
	help me appreciate how I've made others feel in the past.
	Pretend all you want, I'm still caught in the clouds...  
	        Floating away
	        drifting away
	        just can't seem to walk away.
         
	-levi




	tease

	outward signs such a lie
	to tease, make me want to die
	glimmer of hope, a sense of unity
	strike me down with casual impunity
	nothing i say, nothing i do
	can make me whole to you   
	so back i sit, resolved to rest
	back you come as if to jest

	mea culpa



	Love is Lost

	I am forever to lose what i hold dear
	ripped away by my only fear
	here i go again
	running from the pain
	insides twist and turn
	making my subconcious yern
	in fear of a broken heart
	close your eyes as i depart
	
	Blaise
	


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